I’ve been in a season of Mary and Martha.
I thought I had it figured out.
If I sit at Jesus’ feet, if I turn toward the Spirit, if I start my day oriented correctly…then I can get everything done.
All Fierce all the time, baby.
And that’s not how this works at all, is it.
This season of Mary and Martha, it isn’t about how to lifehack the system to get everything done and feel at peace.
It’s about…letting stuff go undone.
It’s about…actually doing what the present moment requires and trusting that everything else will fall into place.
It’s about…not being a martyr who takes it all on herself.
This is really not easy for me. I can say “lalala, I’ll post when I can.” and still look and realize I’ve missed so many Feast Days (not in practice but in sharing about it), have so many unwritten blogs clanging about in my head, and feel sad about it. Like I’m letting people down. Like I’m letting God down.
“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. (Luke 10:41-42a)
I’ve always thought of Pentecost as being a season of action. Fierce Day after Fierce Day; going out into the world to do God’s work. But this year, this Pentecost, I’m having to stop and sit a lot – sit and listen and let the work go. I don’t love it. But it’s the one thing that’s needed.